Right now I’m feeling rather emotional, honestly i am spoilt, i crave the feeling of being loved too much, because i was blessed with so much of it when i was younger.

everything you’ve given me always keep it inside

when one reaches an age, where they are allowed more freedom, in return of more responsibilities, they tend to take advantage of it at pull pace, they do not notice the little things that the people around them does.

And it just wouldn’t feel right if I didn’t have you by my side

when i moved to K.L. to study at Taylors, i was for the first time, living in a different place, having so much more things to do, comparing Brunei to K.L. that is. I was getting to college on my own, i was living with my mom, and my two sisters, living a life as a college student was hard for me, i was having trouble coping with wanting to explore my new habitat than concentrating on my studies. I became rebellious. Id come home late, at like 10-11 pm, when my classes finish at 2, id sneak out of the house sometimes just to go out, i hid so many secrets from her..

You were always there to comfort me and
no one else can be what you have been to me

Even though i failed A levels in K.L, i do not think of it as a regret, or a mistake, i believe everything happens for a reason. I was touched by God when i was that, i accepted Jesus Christ into my heart, and through him i saw the world at a different light, a more clearer light, and started to notice how truly blessed i am.

mama you know I love you

I was selfish and ignorant, how much i hurt her when i would not answer those calls, when i would lie to her, and she’d find out, when she found out of all the secrets i hid from her.

mama you’re the queen of my heart

There is no one in the world who would be able to take all of that, and still be able to love you unconditionally. I was a mess, i had pathetic grades, i was still smoking, i was drinking, clubbing, all the nonsense, but she still saw me as that child that she gave birth to 18 years ago, and nothing could erase that image from her.

Mama, I just want you to know, loving you is like food to my soul

The countless number of times she had shouted at me, the countless number of times she would ask me not to do this not to do that. No matter if i follow them or not, she was still there for me whenever i broke down. She is thousands of miles away from me right now and yet she is so close. Mom, I’m so sorry i never realised til so late in my life, im sorry how i got you so worried all those times, im sorry i dont always listen to what you say..

You have always been around for me even when I was bad

Since i was young, my mom has not told me she loved me, very typical Chinese fashion. and because i was so used to it, i don’t say it to her either. til the conflicts started. when i left K.L. to go study in Miri, that one week before i left, my mom would tell me she loved me before i went out.

Your love is like tears from the stars

It was such a shock, it was such a different feeling. To actually hear it from her than having her show it through actions. She’d always tell me “Just do, don’t need to say” in her typical broken english accent. Everything she does, everything she says, all come with her love.

I can never ever thank God enough to have blessed me with you, you are my source of inspiration, my runaway train when i need to think. I miss you so much, i hope i can visit you soon.

Love,
Neth-neth..

Ps:i miss your cooking. heh =)

Haven’t updated in a few days, have been super busy, with work, lazying around, sleeping. I haven’t been up to much lately, went out with Lor, Fijjy, Feeks, Miel, the other night for sushi at Gadong, then we went over to the arcade, and kick ass at photo-hunt, i had to play 2 machines at once! =/ .. i think i revolutionized the way women thing about men already la, i was multitasking, playing two machines, swearing at my friends for kacau-ing me, and discussing what to do next time with Fijjy.

Nyah.. then it struck me.. men around us are turning quite feminine, No I’m not saying that they have adjusted their sexual orientation from straight to Elton John, its just, The world is changing, I’m sure many of you know the phenomena that is.. the “Metrosexual male”

The direct definition is: “A heterosexual male who has a strong aesthetic sense and inordinate interest in appearance and style, similar to that of homosexual males.”

This tells us 3 things.

1. They are gay wannabe’s
2. They are not willing to accept being called a faggot Homosexual
3. They are very good with ladies.

This brings me to another thing, those guys who act gay-ish, and love all these fashion stuff and speak the female lingo, saying stuff like “oh my god~! those are to die for!” then they should go kill themselves. These sorts of men are really affecting our society, if this trend continues, in 3 years we will have “Men only” fingernail shops, “Patrick’s Secrets”, “Webbo Splash”, pink panadol’s for men, etc.

Well aside from that, I’ll be back to Miri tmrw, sudden change of plans, yesterday night went fishing with Rueben, raymond, Miel, Terry, and two other friends, from like.. 9:30 til 5 in the morning. =/ i didn’t catch anything, not even a plastic bag, i’d actually rather catch a plastic bag than nothing at all, fishing is definitely not for me, just something about lots of men together, with long sticks.. spells.. M E T R O.. sorta.

and here i will do a survey for you, so you guys can have a little insight of me =)

On January 10th 2008 .. a new revolutionary car emerged under the scenes, and amazed us or at least me, with its shittyness wonderfulness. I will just firstly give a little insight on the companies background, etc.

Tata Motors Limited
established in 1945
is the largest automobile manufacturer in India
founded by Jamshetji Tata, now run by Ratan Tata

Im sure many of you don’t know this car company, or don’t care. Well my dad bought it once before, a pick up truck version a few years back. It doesnt have a catchy name like “Toyota vios” or “Honda Civic” .. its name actually sounds quite fierce, like got power~ ..

the infamous “207 DI EX”

doesn’t look too bad huh ? my dad bought it, used it for a year, wrote it off. Had to overhaul twice(due to leaking), and everytime you drive it you have to fill in water after every 30 minutes. In conclusion, the car SUCKS.

here are some jokes about the TATA company for your enjoyment =).

1. How do you Upgrade a TATA?

A: Put in an engine.

2. What’s the difference between a TATA and the principal’s office?

A. It’s less embarrassing if your friends see you leaving the
principal’s office.

3. What goes on pages 4-5 of the TATA’s user’s manual?

A: The train & bus schedule.

4. What is the sport-version of TATA?

A: The driver wears Nike shoes.

5. What do you call a TATA with brakes?

A: Customized.
Now back to the main point of this post, tata released the new car, it is called the

“Tata Nano”

we can assume from analysing the name that the car will be

Tata – shitty and useless
Nano – small

so when i read up about the release, i just had to see the car, and to my amazement, it wasn’t like what i imagined, it was even shittier =/ …

the car looks quite nice here. NOT

its a cross between the Smart car and a Perodua Viva. Running on a 623cc engine, it produces a very amazing 33hp. It is the worlds current cheapest production car, each costing around $100,000 rupees, or around $8,300 RM. which is very cheap. Now here comes the catch.

The standard model comes without power steering(no problem), no radio( -_-”) only four gear manual transmission, windows are wind-down, boot is big enough to fit “1″ duffel bag, and no air conditioning(OMFG) with the weather conditions in India, which can reach around 35 degrees celcius, people are gonna suffer. Only the ‘Deluxe’ version comes with air conditioning, but still no power steering, airbag and radio.

I hate how they are trying to make it seem like its a revolutionary car, when Mr. Ratan Tata was unveiling this car, he mentioned back on the Wright Brothers first flight, and the moon landing, and used it to compare with this car. you got to be kidding me.

let me show you what i mean, here are two pictures of posters for the car.

computer generated picture of the car, swirly lines, big building in india.. classic..i can do that in photoshop too =D ill put a picture of a forklift their instead though, rather drive that.

another computer generated picture, more of them swirly lines, you see how they have they have to put things in black and white. To cover up the dirtyness..

In conclusion, if i ever see this car, i will smash it into a billion nano pieces. =@ i thought looking at the Naza Sutera was bad enough (dedicated to basil) but now i found a new hatred, they are so lucky its now selling only in India, i was close to smashing my own computer, but i thought twice.. then three times, then i decided not to.

In this post i will present to you, an in depth analysis of the little devil living inside my house! It cries out sometimes, leaves little messes around the house, of either its carcasses, or its little droppings.

WARNING. NOT FOR THE FAINT OF HEART, THE PICTURES YOU ARE ABOUT TO SEE MAY BE TOO MUCH FOR YOU TO COMPREHEND. SYMPTOMS MAY INVOLVE CRYING, LAUGHING, AWWWW-ING. AND FAINTING.

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here is the little devil! caught it trying to steal something, then it turned around and shrieked an evil laugh started slamming its paws onto the table!

here you see it trying to hypnotize my dad and stepmom by trying to act cute.. you’re not fooling me! =@ grr!

there it is attacking my maid! look at its beady little eyes.. full of fiery.. erm.. fire..

here its holding a knife.. =0~! see my stepmom holding its arms so it cant attack..

it followed us shopping and pretended to be a cute baby.. so devious..

here’s one of its victims.. poor old poohbear.. =( it had its evil acidic drool all over..

here its trying to act all japanese kawaii fashion whatever~..

Well.. technically shes my niece, but she’s still a little devil! she hit my face all the time and laughs doing it. ebil.. her name’s chloe. is now 1 year and 2 weeks old. shes so adorable isnt she =) she rarely cries, and is addicted to banana’s, i will upload a video of her eating banana’s and what she does after next time, after i edit the video.

I admit i’ve thought about marriage a few times in my life, not about wanting to, but about what would happen if i did, will i have a big house? will my wife be as i expected? how will the wedding go? will my heart beat a billion times a second?(it cannot. if it does you will die of cardiac arrest, and therefore spoil the wedding) will i live my life the way i planned it out?

All of these things come into my mind, then it reminds me of a wedding my friend told me once, that these two couples were racers, and when they got married, they hopped into seperate cars and raced thru towards their dreams. In an odd way it is very sweet.

Then i thought about it, what kind of car would i drive for my wedding, maybe BMW, Mercedes, Ferrari(wah).. but definitely.. not THIS!

That my friends, is a forklift(in case you don’t know). Its your everyday tool for carrying crates, boxes, junk, and apparently your wife and future! because guess what is stumbled across after coming home from breakfast.

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yes, i checked the back to see if there
were cans on a string attached..

i wonder if it has good mileage..

I was shocked to see it, after my morning kolokmee with wantan soup, mmm… =) i went towards the car and while reversing i was like. =0! and i couldnt resist taking a picture of it. I wonder if the bride and groom were eating kolokmee in the same shop too.. hrmm..

I’m quite excited about finally deciding to start up a blog again, it’s been quite some time since i’ve been into these things, but i will still make it an obligatory routine to keep this blog alive and up to date =)

I’m still stuck in hellhole brunei, will be back in miri around the 19th if i’m not mistaken, can’t wait to be back, where freedom is calling my name louder each passing day, all i’ve been doing here is just looking at people indulge in their daily activities, working their asses off as i watch them suffer in the blistering weather.

For new years i went along with my friends to some royal person’s house for a party, where i conjured up a few commandments which i myself will follow. You are by all means allowed to follow them if you wish >=)

Commandment #1
Thou musthe maketh sureth that there isth liquor-eth during the birtheth oth the new year, as being sobereth during this day, is sinfuleth, and shalt be punishable by death.

Commandment #2
Resolutions made during the birtheth oth the new year isth also sinfuleth, as theyth areth nevereth completed. i repeateth, NEVERETH!!!

Commandment #3
Nevereth tryeth durian flavored shisha-eth, or thou shall simply be askingeth foreth thy own death wisheth..

This concludes my first blogpost in roughtly 0.008th of a millenium, there will be more to come so please do come visit again! in case of any complaints, questions, flaming, i can
answer them instantaneously! just click here. i’m going to leave you with a humorous picture just for kicks